Wednesday, October 04, 2006

A Month in Amsterdam

So yeah, I have been here a month now in Amsterdam. Being here has truly changed my life. Gosh, I don't even know where to star or what to say. Prolly cuz I am really tired right now, so bear with me. Life here is so amazing. GOD is amazing! The things He has done and continues to do in my life is just awesome. I have never been so happy in my life. Each day is just a new opportunity for me to praise Him, and I am blessed. Soooo blessed! I have been so many wonderful people here at the Shelter. People from all over the world. I would list them all, but there are like 40 of us. It has been so sad seeing people leave here, but I know that this is a factor of life. People come and go in our lives. People change. I am changing. I remember this summer when God spoke to me about getting disciplined in Him. Man....It's definitely happening. He really has been teaching me a lot lately. The first week at the Shelter was difficult but good. I was attacked spiritually so much with things going on, and I almost got to the point of wondering if this is where I am supposed to be. That thought lasted for about a second. Then, I realized that I AM supposed to be here, and this is the reason WHY I am getting attacked so much. The stupid devil doesn't want me here. Well, I could care less whether or not he or anyone else wants me here because I know that God has an awesome plan and purpose for me to be there, and it is already showing in my life. Healing is really taking place. Sunday was one of the most amazing days for me. I told God that even if Sunday was the only reason why He brought me to Amsterdam, then I am more than blessed. Sunday was a day of real healing and breakthrough for me. I went to church in the morning at this awesome church callefd Maranatha, which is a predominantly black church. The service is in Dutch, but some songs are in English, and they also have English translators for the service. It was my second time attending this church. The worship blew me away. I really enjoy singing worship songs in Dutch. It's helping me learn the language, which is one of my goals to accomplish during my time here. It's going a bit slower than planned, but I'll get there! Anyway, during worship, God spoke to me about a few things. Then, this woman did some special music, and the first song she sang was almost exactly what God had just spoken to me about during worship. It was so cool. The message was very much an evangelistic message by a guest speaker who I think is from the states, but it was great and encouraging. After church, I came home, and me and Samgar were singing worship songs....Jason Upton, of course...hehehe! Then, he just said, "Let's just worship God." So we just sang and worshipped the Lord. Well, the Spirit of God came in the room so powerfully. He began singing prophetically into my life. Then, Maria came and prayed with me, and I began to ball my eyes out. God was speaking through her. So much healing occurred during this time. God was speaking to me, and I just felt like this flushing go through my body like He was removing all of the hurt and pain from broken relationships, childhood stuff, etc. It was amazing. I seriously feel like a whole new person. I can't even describe how much God has changed my life. I am still in awe that He has called me here to minister to His people. I have been some great people from all over the world and have established some great friendships that will last for a very long time. Gosh, I should have been blogging much sooner than now. I am a nerd for not doing that! Haha! I love to write, and often, I get thinkin so much, and there is so much I want to put into words, and I get too lazy or busy with other things that this becomes secondary. I guess it goes back to the discipline thing. I seriously want to write a book, maybe about my life...ya know, my testimony. We shall see. I love to write. It is so liberating. I find myself getting into the Word of God more and praying more, which has been giving me more inspiration to write song lyrics again. I am really excited about this. My roommate, Marga, and I are planning on leading worship at the Cleft one of these days, which will be cool. Granted I can't play an instrument, but I do love to sing. I don't have the greatest voice, but I know God is blessed when I sing His praises. Actually, worship sounds good right about until next time...

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